Today marks 6 months since I graduated and obtained my MPA. On that day and time, I had no idea where I'd be, but I knew that I'd be on a journey. I was worried about the direction of my career and life. There were so many unknowns and things I wanted to accomplish that it was difficult to find my niche and pinpoint exactly where I fit in. I was scatter brained, knowing that not having a solid plan would greatly impact my livelihood and not ready for the lessons I'd learn along the way. But hey, who's ever "ready" for life's curve balls.
Fast forward to now, one of the biggest eye openers in my journey has been the power of manifestation. I truly believe that speaking positivity breeds positivity. I’ve learned that you have to be specific and know exactly what you want. For some people, that comes easier – they know exactly what they want and how they want to do it. For others, it’s not as clear – they may know what they want but not how they want to do it or get there. In that same note, when you’re not in tune with your own purpose and happiness, manifestation becomes tricky. Sometimes what you want in the moment isn’t actually what you want in the long run. For example, this time last year, I was a stressed grad student struggling to find a new job that was in my career field. I said to myself, “I don’t care what I do, I just want to make more money.” That’s exactly what I got – being paid more to do something I don’t care about. That turned out to be the exact opposite of what I truly desired, a purposed job that was intertwined in my actual interests... Oh, the irony of how I got exactly what I asked for – my manifestation.
This has been one of the most trying obstacles but I’m grateful for it because it made me think and take action. Over the past few weeks, I entered a period of deeper understanding and learning about myself, my current position/status, and my wants/needs. Essentially, what it means to be me and what really satisfies/fulfills me. This inward alone time has been an emotional roller coaster, but one that was needed because much growth has occurred. I’ve let go of toxic relationships/habits, met new people, gone new places, done new things. I did these things to get my mind off the fact that what I’ve been searching for is just not here. If it wasn’t for my current state, I wouldn’t have done half the things I did and am planning to do. I wouldn't have figured out that my career field isn't really the field for me, even if I did have more favorable circumstances. In being uncomfortable, I’ve been forced to catapult myself out of my comfort zone and figure out exactly where I want to go, how I’m going to get there, and who I want to be there. I’m making decisions based on my actual wants and needs, not on what’s expected of me or looks good on paper. I’m also more open to taking in different kinds of opportunities. I might not have all the specifics down yet, but I’m learning how to let go of things I can’t change and manifest with purpose and intention.
I want to live every day to the fullest and in the moment. I don’t want to regret that I didn’t take risks on myself if today is/was my last day. I don't want to keep waking up wondering, 'why am I here?' I will make my impact now so I can leave an impression on the world, regardless of time. Life is short, but is also what I make it.
Work selfies always brighten up the day. Stay positive :)