I feel change occurring in me. Sometimes I'm not sure if it's good, bad, pleasant, unpleasant, etc. But one thing I have realized is that my journey is meant to be walked courageously on my own. Accepting the presence of others as they come and go, knowing that with chaos surely comes peace of mind. Breaking free of codependency, negative thoughts, and bad habits. Being comfortable in my own skin and with my own thoughts. Knowing that I have the power to make good decisions. The power to let go. The power to breathe easy. The power of being better, doing better, and choosing better.
How fitting that my resent painting reflects this notion. For some reason on Saturday morning, I had the urge to paint something but didn't have much inspiration. So I picked some colors and whisked away at my canvas. With little motivation behind it (or so I thought) other than painting a flower, Noir was created. I randomly picked a rose and sun. As I was staring at my finished product, I started to think, 'what does a black rose and black sun even symbolize?' As I did more research into the symbolism of both, I found the common themes of birth/death, rejuvenation, and rebirth intertwined with femininity. I realized that this piece applies to the cusp in life that I'm currently in, more specifically, the last few months. There have been a lot of 'births, deaths, and rejuvenation' happening either within me or close to me. Some good, some bad, but all necessary as long as I end up where I need to be, surrounded by the right support system, and with a meaningful story to share (I guess - bittersweet). Maybe it's the season or in the air. Not sure, but somehow Noir definitely represents the current state of me.
I just love how energy, vibes, and time tends to manifest within the things you create. You never quite know how active your subconscious is and how it can drive you - predestining and preparing you for your purpose. Your intuition helps make sense of things. I encourage you all to pay attention to more aspects of yourself. Sometimes, the answers are within you, you just have to put all of the pieces together.